Survivor Stories

Feb. 2001:

Dear Sir,
I just very recently became aware of your group. I am a 27 year old white male. I was employed at the correctional lock up in Huntsville for four years. While working as an officer there I heard and even saw a large number of assaults. These bothered me at first and I reported them to older & higher ranking officers. And I quickly learned this was the way of things. I am ashamed to admit that I even came to have much the same callous and even amused outlook as my fellow guards. I watched one or two and was openly amused and secretly aroused by it. This all changed on the 14 of Oct 1996, I was myself the object of an attack. Three black inmates all trusties whom I had supervised in the past, jumped me in a utility corridor where they were working. I knew that one of them had a beef against me, but never thought this could happen. I was overpowered by them and beaten, then sodomized as they held me down. Two fucked me while the third demanded oral sex, I resisted at first. But once the first one penetrated me, something changed and I sucked one while the others penetrated me. They all 3 made a point of stroking caressing my body and forcing me to orgasm. Afterwards they helped dress me back in my uniform it was near the end of that shift. And we all when back to our normal activities, I when home without saying anything about it.

I was to shocked & ashamed. I have since come to understand what was happening to me and what had happened to those inmates I saw being abused! The next day the other officers noticed my bruises and asked what had happened. I still could not tell so explained it away. The worst part was yet to come however. As is always the case when someone is turned out, they kept coming back for more. And worse the other inmates and even some guards began hearing of it! Most of the time I could get away from the inmates. But there were times like that first where I was alone and out numbered. And then a guard whom I later heard, was into this. Came to me and forced me with threats of outting to the other officers. He was very nasty and unpleasant to me and treated me much the same as the Men treat most Punks. I was forced to quit my job because of him. Later I tried filing complaints about the assault and about him. These were dismissed covered up or lost, I did not file suit because of my fears, both of the prison officers and of friends and family finding out about the assaults. I know they were no fault of mine. But the world in general does not see it in this way!

The disrespect and even hatred I experienced from the other guards who found out and remembering how they had laughed and enjoyed many of these same things, put fear in me.

- Guard, Texas