I was to shocked & ashamed. I have since come to understand what was happening to me and what had happened to those inmates I saw being abused! The next day the other officers noticed my bruises and asked what had happened. I still could not tell so explained it away. The worst part was yet to come however. As is always the case when someone is turned out, they kept coming back for more. And worse the other inmates and even some guards began hearing of it! Most of the time I could get away from the inmates. But there were times like that first where I was alone and out numbered. And then a guard whom I later heard, was into this. Came to me and forced me with threats of outting to the other officers. He was very nasty and unpleasant to me and treated me much the same as the Men treat most Punks. I was forced to quit my job because of him. Later I tried filing complaints about the assault and about him. These were dismissed covered up or lost, I did not file suit because of my fears, both of the prison officers and of friends and family finding out about the assaults. I know they were no fault of mine. But the world in general does not see it in this way!
The disrespect and even hatred I experienced from the other guards who found out and remembering how they had laughed and enjoyed many of these same things, put fear in me.
- Guard, Texas