My rape took place very shortly after arriving at a county jail.
took place in a shower with no staff around. I was a pre-trial detainee
at the time. I had never been in a jail before and I had come in
an injury to my side so I was not expecting it. The rape resulted
life-long disease Ė Herpes II. I have also been diagnosed now with
post-traumatic stress disorder. I believe rape is used as a weapon
Judges either donít care or donít know what to do to protect those they
I have nightmares that come every night, and uncontrolled waves of fear
towards correctional officers. I donít know how to work this out
my family. Although they are very supportive they want me to be
ďupĒ and I donít know how to do that. It has been even harder for
since my mother works in corrections. A person who has been raped
no ability to heal without some kind of change of attitude in the
system. Although my mom has a tremendous education in her field
lacks the ability or understanding of what is happening inside me.
There just are no courses to teach correctional officers and staff
including wardens on how to handle this problem.
The victim needs to be treated as a victim and not told to stuff it.
The same officers that abused me at Alfred Jail were the ones who turned
the other way during my rape and still they asked me to share how I
My feelings are like walking into a town that was hit by a nuclear
weapon. Youíre there and there is not much, only gray dirt and
skeletons of buildings you used to know. Everything is gone as you
Everything seems changed and youíre told to just start over. Where
you start? The people are changed or have moved on. I feel
forever from the fallout.