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I greet you with great love, and great respect!
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I filled out the questionnaire that you sent me. I have also returned it to you weeks ago.I am here now sending to you the two pages of my experience here dealing with prison rape issues in and at an early stage. I do not wish to experience any form of rape period ever again.

I will be trying to call you by phone personally. Thank you fro the opportunity to be heard, if there is anything else that I can do please let me know. No one else out of the references that you sent to me ever responded back, I guess I understand it's the same old scene where a man asks you for help and all questions come before any concern fpr human rights and dignity; what's his sexual orientation, what color is he, who does he support, what's his affiliation ect. There are certain people you play games with and certain people you don't. I am being honest and to the point I have no inten to play games about my experiences. When we look at what is necessary from a human stand point we find what balance out our existence in living a life under any condition which there are certain necessities. Keeping it short!

Sincerely,
Anonymous

First I can give you the actual facts and then my perception on it all. People like these two individuals need to be stopped and dealt with. The first incident occurred When I was being let out for daily recreation. I am at a twenty three hour lock down facility. UL Penitentiary Marion, Il. I was first hand cuffed with my hands behind my back in order to be walked out for recreation from my location. As I stepped out of my cell into the range walk way I had to wait to be reached.

Correctional officer Burgess "a male" walked up to me and began to search my person by sliding his hands along and around my body searching for a weapon. When he began to search my pant leg he went high up toward my crotch area and brought his hand down on the shaft of my penis and continued to search my person like it was normal. After the physical search he walked around me in order to hold the handcuffs, while he did that I remained conscious and hears him say to me ("you're not going to say anything") I continued to walk off the range to the recreation area. I gave no reply.

Prior to that incident I was verbally abused by other officers, they were questioning my sexual orientation where I could hear them. I found that incident to be very bizarre. I contributed their discussion of my sexual orientation to their ignorance.

The incident with the inmate was just as bizarre as the others. Because of my limited space and twenty three hour lockdown the awareness of physical space between each inmate is magnified to the greater level of focus and attention. Along with that is a heightened level of stress awareness from the long solitude inside a concrete physical structure. I had told the inmate a few times that he was a bit o close to me while we were conversating. We discussed religion and a few minor interests in journalism. For some bizarre reason the inmate decided to move his arm from the side of his body in order to touch my genitals that were neatly packed up in my shorts which my pants covered. My reaction was disbelief he quickly apologized as though it was an accident. We were all just standing perfectly still. Three days later I tried to inflict as much injury to him as I could. I told him that I would kill him if I ever caught him Around anyones children.

I do believe that no man, woman or child should have to suffer sexual abuse at home, in any institutions or anywhere on this earth. There are many levels in which these bizarre experiences of mine can be perceived and understood. I only know of one and that is, there are people who think and act in a homosexual nature and wish to force their sick nature upon others whom are not homosexuals. This perception of homosexuality is with the mind of a person who thinks it and acts in concert toward it. I wont go into what part of the brain these thoughts and acts come from. I will say that there are a lot of confused correctional officers and staff personell here. A person can be what they want in their own mind, but when a person projects their sick nature out on to people that have no desire for the others projections in thinking or acts that sick person needs to be locked up. Keeping them away from sound citizens of the world.

You can place this without my name and without anonymously

Thank You,
Anonymous